In day to day practice, white institutions that operate in international/ist relations and emphasise access and inclusion often perpetuate inequality and lack of access in their own structures, in their ways of treating colleagues, artists in residence and guests, in their ways of not listening, and in their unwillingness to be accountable for their own actions. Conflict that arises is often settled from the institutional side with an apology, which is supposed to suffice yet which makes real change impossible.